I thought I would share my testimony. I have never really told anyone what I went through and still now it is hard to really talk about it but I hope that I am able to help someone.
In December 2003, we noticed that something was wrong with my dad. His mouth was drawled to one side, he was spilling things, it was just little things but we knew something was wrong. We tried to get him to go to the doctor but he wouldn't go. On Christmas day, we went to a friends' house to eat dinner. They even noticed that something was wrong. As we were getting ready to leave, my mom said she would take him to the emergency room. He refused. But instead of my mom turning to go home, she turned toward the hospital. At the hospital they did a CAT scan and found a brain tumor. We were devastated!
The next day, they did a MRI and found other small tumors on the brain. On the right side, the tumor covered the whole side. Two days after Christmas they did surgery and found out it was cancer. I can still see the doctors face as he told us the bad news. It was one of the fastest growing kinds there is. There was nothing they could really do. Chemo wouldn't really help. It would only make him sick. The doctor said to just go home and enjoy the time you have left.
We prayed every day that God would heal him. Every morning my mom, dad, and I would join hands and pray. The surgery had paralyzed his left side. He begin gaining some strength back. I honestly believed that he was going to be healed. A month after his surgery, he started going down. He was in a lot of pain. They begin giving him morphine and shortly after he went into a coma. The hospice nurse pulled us aside and told us that we were going to have to tell him that it was okay to go. He was only holding on because of my mom and I. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
On January 30, 2004 he passed away. I was so mad at God. For months I could not get over it. I shut everyone out. I would not talk about it. I still went to church but I just sat there. One night, we were having a really good service. I begin to pray right where I was sitting. I asked God to forgive me. I knew it wasn't God's fault that my dad had died. i just missed him so much. God gave me peace that night.
God has brought me through many trials. In September 2008, I almost lost my mom. She had to have emergency surgery. God reached down and brought her through. Other things have happened in my life, but no matter what I serve a God who will always be there to bring me through.
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