Today marks one year since we found out my mom has cirrhosis of the liver. I've been reflecting back over this year and thought of all the changes that have taken place. Some changes that I have not been ready for but I had to accept them. Although my mom is in the early stages of cirrhosis, she has had several health issues associated with the cirrhosis, mostly in the past couple months. She has been in and out of the hospital twice and the emergency room three times. I have had to learn to do everything at home. Of course, I know how to do everything at home but to have to do everything (housework, yardwork, cooking, etc) with no help has been challenging along with working a full time job. And I'm not complaining. I'm glad that I am able to do it.
I see that through all that we have been through, I have drawn closer to God. At first I stayed so stressed out because I was focusing more on getting things done and worrying about my mom instead of leaving it all in God's hands.Yes, there are times that I want to question God and I wonder just how much more I can handle but I am trusting God. I know that He will bring us through all this and I am still believing for complete healing in my mom's body. Now, while I am still trying to get things done I do allow myself a little time to rest in the evenings. Mom is starting to feel better now to and has been able to start doing a few things around the house again. She hates that she can't do more but I told her not to worry. I will get things done eventually. Through all of this my mom and I's relationship has gotten even closer. We now take time to just sit and talk. I cherish these moments. We are never promised tomorrow. I don't want to get so caught up in the busyness of life and one day look back and regret that I never took that time.